Martina Million

I could write an entire saga about my life. So much has happened. As if my soul decided to complete the lessons of twenty lifetimes in one. And the clearing? Probably a thousand years’ worth at once. I don’t do anything gently or slowly. It’s more like spiritual ADHD — trying to manage a million realities at the same time.

There was a psychologist, a psychiatrist, even an exorcist — because I was a devoted Catholic. I could feel sorry for myself and describe how terrifying those episodes were, but the truth is they forced me to start questioning religion, the system, faith itself. So thank you to the entire demonic training team for years of education in energy work and mental strength. Today you can be proud — I not only freed myself, but my whole lineage got a chance to tell you to back off. If you had handled me more gently, I probably wouldn’t have gone into such a fierce cleansing and liberation mode. And since I tend to go all in, it turned out I carry many lifetimes of knowledge, which I now use with satisfaction.

My dating life is a not-so-funny joke. Who wants to be with a woman who reads the subconscious and sees everything the other person doesn’t even understand about themselves? That’s why my romances usually end after three dates: when they realize that I KNOW, that I’m hard to lie to, that my energy triggers them, that around me it has to be integrity and open cards. Everyone wants to experience a psychic woman — we’re incredible in the bedroom thanks to our sensitivity and energy — but when it comes to real life, they choose someone easier, less complex. I’ve heard it from family members and even lovers: “Men don’t like women they can’t gently control.” My grandmother repeated my whole life that men don’t like intelligent women at all. Weak men don’t. I’m stubbornly waiting for a strong one — a man who falls in love with my power instead of asking me to shrink.

Yes, my ability to see patterns and the fact that I’m emotionally and spiritually advanced are one reason I’m single — but it’s also the reason I’m highly effective at what I do.

I was born in Poland. My mother had to face being a single parent, and I began life with a template of rejection and fear of abandonment. Today they call it a fearful avoidant attachment style. It took me years to untangle it, with the enthusiastic help of my soulmates, who broke my heart in bulk. I thank them today, because I was a stubborn learner and apparently needed the lessons delivered the hard way. When it came to love, I was hopeless. But I love this about myself: despite all the mess, I can still love and I still believe in love. No one managed to destroy my heart. That’s a superpower.

Romance aside, I know how to work with patterns on a soul, ancestral, and karmic level. Multidimensionally. Not everything you struggle with today can be blamed on childhood. Sometimes we inherit an entire set of unprocessed traumas and blocks from our ancestors — along with their talents, which need to be excavated. Add past lifetimes and the soul-level baggage you carry, and you end up with quite a mess in the subconscious.

Then there’s the country you live in or were born in — that shapes your patterns too. That’s why emigrants often struggle with identity. I lived in Scotland for seventeen years, and it changed me profoundly.

I hope you find something within Subconscious Alchemy that helps you understand yourself. If I had to give you one piece of advice: don’t cling too tightly to your identity, because it will start to limit you. Be stable, but flexible in your growth.

I am a serial killer of my own personalities — because at every stage I had to say goodbye to a version of myself that was never truly me.

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I was sensitive from childhood. I saw and felt too much. At three years old I saw a demon, and out of fear I blocked my gifts. I completely shut down my third eye. During attacks I would squeeze my eyes shut, just so I wouldn’t see anything. After a while I understood that even if I couldn’t see the spiritual world, they could still see me perfectly. The attacks didn’t stop.